Rejection #2: The only reason I left the house today

This challenge is proving to be more difficult than expected. Since I did a "remote" challenge yesterday by texting and not doing something in person, I wanted to step it up today. I went to the pool and one guy was there, but he wasn't there long enough for me to come up with something to ask him. It started raining shortly after that and I was home the rest of the day working.

I saw my neighbor outside and we chatted, but again ... I blanked.

Suddenly it's 8:30 with no rejection, just like yesterday. So, I got in my car and drove to Dunkin' Donuts. My plan was to ask the guy behind the counter if he would sing a song for me and let me record it. I totally choked. My nerves surprised me. I'm usually okay talking to strangers and approaching people, but for some reason this was different.

So, instead, I ended up with a small coffee that I didn't need. Unneeded caffeine and sugar, no good. Unnecessary spending, no good. I realized I needed more time to "amp up" to approach someone, so I went to the nearby Hudson Grille/Mellow Mushroom parking lot to look for someone outside that I could target. Sounds sketchy and that's how it felt.

I stood in front of the restaurants looking around. People came and got into their cars. I kept chickening out. I was so nervous that I could feel the blood coursing through my veins and I started feeling numb in my arms and legs. How crazy is that?!? I was shocked. I also passed on the smokers that came outside of Hudson. I told myself it was because they seemed tipsy and would probably say Yes.

Then I noticed two Mellow Mushroom workers out on the porch just shooting the shit. I thought to myself, "Okay, people bored at work, this is good." As I walked up, one of them went inside so I finally went for it. I asked the other one if he would sing me a song and let me record it.

He asked if I was serious, I said Yes. I tried to maintain my composure and not laugh like a little girl like it wasn't serious or break down and tell him why I asked. He asked what song and I said whatever he liked. He then said he was going to go get his buddy and came back with the first guy and told him what I'd asked. They asked me why I wanted it. I said, "Um, so I can watch it later and smile?"

Yes, creepy as shit. I kinda broke a little bit there and hung my head laughing and said, "That's weird, isn't it?" They readily agreed. More questions about what song. I finally said I just needed a Yes or No from the first guy. The second guy seemed pretty game, so I focused on the first. He said, "No, I don't want to do it, sorry."

Rejected!

At this point I was shaking. I then told them about the challenge. I don't know if that's against the rules. They thought it was awesome and suggested that next time I ask someone to tap dance. Adding it to the list.

If nothing else, I'm facing some fears ... apparently. Just not sure if it's precisely the fear of rejection just yet ...